cause i don't want to end up being in a band that sounds like everyone else. that's why this is a little hard sometimes. coming up with something inventive. we have two kids there ready fr something. with time to make things happen, and all we need i guess is that step towards motivation.
i think my friend zach will say we sound pretentious. get get go. i don't want to play long shows. kids get tired, and we want to just be there fr so long. i can't keep that stuff up fr too long. kayla brought up the idea of the danger band. danger danger. putting the crowd in danger will actually help. that'll get some attention.
someone yelled at me at work. the lady that once whined herself to tears. yes. she yelled and had me deliver the pictures to her office.. and didn't even pick them up two hours after she needed em. how do i know? my coworker told me. this is why i dislike people. the majority of people.
time to rock soon. it's too hot, and i don't like shorts still. cause you have to maintain some sort of hotness throughout.
xox
watching crotching tiger hidden dragon makes me want to fly. i can .. i'm chinese. really. the movie was pretty good, and i like the fact that it ended on a sad note.. not everything is so happy all the time. but yes, it left me driving home on a sad note.. relatively sad note.
plan plan:: marry kayla. start a pretentious record label, and use our new cute emails. the second being the hardest, but all will occur sometime or another. heh. yeah. hot weather is no fun.
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trips to the record store. today is dedicated to the sole purpose of driving to the bay area to get rid of cds and to marvel at the wonders of their record stores there. since that's mostly what we buy. a list has been made with 12 lucky bands. i doubt i'll get all 12, that's alot of money to be spent, money that i don't necessarily have to waste.
enjoying being a kid. that's what it's all abt.
there's not much to say really. really. no one else is blogging. people are asking abt jamie, kayla is around, and looking hot . . come on come on. hehe. at least i got this all up on the new address and i'm still writing.
i got five cds yesterday. having trouble weeding through all of them. . the tool cd seems to be pretty technical enough, and enjoyful fr car listening, the icarus line seems to make me want to dance more and more, the pele cd calls davy to play post rock, and the trust foundation cds just egg on the whole thing we've been doing. playing honest music.
soaking in. . soaking music in now.
it's hot here, and i'm tired, everyday. it's exciting to think abt music and not some other distracting subject. yes yes. trying to quit girls. hard, but not so hard these days with something to focus on. work is just something to do in the day, rock and roll is just something to live fr the rest of the time.
kid of the day:: the girl with the modest mouse shirt that took my heart away
complaint of the week:: weather
drink of the season:: purified water
and it does make my day when hot kids iM me. heh.
cuddlecore@thefriendshipexchange.com and my aim is still iheartbrettd
just in case someone wanted to talk to me.. i don't know, there was some crazy kids that did yesterday. heh. yesterday was pretty good. these past few days have been pretty good except fr the heat. me and karlos played music last nite. i must say, we got something down. . and we got a drummer too, which is really exciting. this is gonna rock rock. power math pop. hah. i don't know. we should just play what comes out, but that's what does.. cause i'm rock, and he's indie rock. it's hard to explain. heh.
the dream of the econoline 150 might ring true sometime.
i'm strugging with myself that little bit. wondering what makes me happy. it makes me wonder. i've been thinking more and more abt leaving this place because now i have a reason. school. art school. i am doing ok. there's nothing that is making me sad, but still, i am. i am when i'm sitting around not being creative. . not being able to. the only thing i want is a focus. . a person. then i start to think. i had everything. . andria was there. . the music was going, i was working. . it was working. then suddenly, things strayed away. making me wonder. i really don't know where this is going. but i feel alone no matter what sometimes, and that could be the problem. i struggle to figure out what i want, i struggle to try to make myself feel that this is what i want. .
feeling better. feeling better. and the weezer cd is taking a break from me trying to cram it in. it's sad that's what you have to do with this one.
this time is the loneliest time of the day. . abt to go to bed. i managed to keep myself occupied working on this thing. . and writing music. i'm convinced i'll never put anything out. . but maybe i should just push myself to the point where i have to . . almost there. i am. waiting on a call i will probably never get today.
the new weezer cd is out today. no raving fr me. i went in to manic music to listen to it, and was sorely dissappointed. i had to give it a chance, i gave it three. bah. how can i just try to remember weezer circa 1994-1995. where were you then? i was just a kid getting into rock music and peddling through middle school. all these new cds coming out, and always am i dissappointed. destiny's child cd. . bah. even the cover art is a little too much. i hope the new n sync cd will rock the dance party like the last.
i think im getting strep throat again.
blaaaaaaaahhh.
(short posts are dumb. i do this to spite you all. rah ha ha.)
today i am supposed to be working so hard on my school work that i should be breaking out in sweat, that is not the case. i did "what i had to" and took a break (hence). my mind has been, i dont know where, floating to far away places. i am thinking about taking a speech class because i have no skill in speaking, communicating thought, let alone forming it. i think i've become worse with it, too. especially this post. it's poor in structure. i'll see you on thursday...or so.
i want more kids seeing this, but seeing how we've never done any advertising or anything, the 50 a day is pretty good. but there's always room fr more. the new domain is registered, but i'm waiting on my mac to be fixed so i can transfer everything correctly and work on a new design. rock on.
i missed a good show last night just because i didn't want to drive out far to see my friends. ent and crime in choir. seing that post rock mayhem makes me proud to be in sacramento. hehe. proud, that's kinda funny. and lightning bolt is playing with the boy from crime in choir too, next month. . this is gonna be crazy. actually, today is gonna be crazy. senior ball, and davy dressed up ready to rock it. black shit black pants, white belt white tie ..ready to rock.
xchuggachuggadiex@teameffinrock.com
davyinthemuthafuckinhouse@teameffinrock.com
jamie_o@teameffinrock.com
davy_o@teameffinrock.com
and the all important info@teameffinrock.com . .right, so we look important or something. not like any other kids around. cause you know, instead of toyotas with threeoneg stickers on the back, we roll around in bentleys . .just like my idol jermaine dupri. imagine, if he wrote my songs, i'd roll around in those things too. heh.
so my fear of being fired is a little reassured now, as in i'm not getting fired. heh. always good. always good to have money coming in. how else are you supposed to take kids out and so on.
one monster nap later, i am not tired. pac man awaits.
back to television and the arrival of a phone call.
so the plan of lynda coming to see me at my work didn't fall through and yield a different, yet more impressive one. going to her work to give her this package.. or dropping it off at her house to pick up when she came home from school at 10:30. both pretty good, and both would make her day, but i went fr the up front approach. going to window one at this evil county office and making her day. trying to shove the package through the bottom of the window below the speaker that i was supposed to hear her voice in. it's too weird talking through one of those things.. like a ticket window, but i feel like i was just put in jail. she came out and talked fr a bit, then i got to buy us cooling beverages. the "plan" worked out, and i got my lynda fix fr the day. heh. i just hope she has better days there at work.
eat work talk to girls .. repeat and repeat over again.
lynda says she's coming to get me fr lunch. seeing how she has to ride the light rail to see me. .that's pretty rad. hot stuff, and i'm excited, but too bad it's only gonna be a half an hour before i have to let her go back to work, and i have to go home or what not. gar. i just want her to stay. . heh.
time to get ready fr work and get hair ready. yes. yes. twenty seven dollars in haircare products and still not enough.
this last leg of the week has not been so good. tipsy tipsy i have been and just every little thing seems to be going bad, and everything little thing has been making me angry. rar. . that's all i can do. i try not to get irate because it wouldn't help much. i just want to see some people. i want to see lynda, i want to see jamie. .and i want to just sit. not do anything. not thing abt anything.. and just be there. best friend, and crush kid. . hehe.
i should go. my mom wants to get out of here quick . . and with the backpack with my sleeping bag and cds galore. take care..
all 10 ppl on my buddy list are not online. funny. i do have talk to lots of kids on here rite? not really at all. . only the best. waiting fr a phone call. .waiting fr the call to rock. waiting fr her to call. waiting fr something to happen. . i wonder how much of my life is spent waiting fr something to happen?
on the top boyfriend list she said. i guess i'm a pretty good kid, lauryn valentine did tell andria i was a keeper. . yes i am, but not very often am i held onto. i'm ok with it. . these things all happen fr a reason. i guess i understand now.
i have really not too much to do these days. i'm actually playing today with timmy after i get off work, and maybe recording. it's been too fast, and i'm not ready. i don't even think we have enough equipment..this is what i'm here fr. he's gonna leave the half stack here. i'm ready. i'm ready to gather up a team of kids and rock this. . a team of superheroes ready and willing to fight the silly silly kids out there that play horrible music.
it's weird cause i remember a few times in this past month where i was with someone, and i was still lonely. i don't why i'm a little messed up, but i know sometimes ppl are paying attention. i know, it happens, a little too often with some ppl. gar. why am i whining abt this now, i'm ok.
i miss jamie. i miss you jamie. i still haven't mailed anything out. .it seems like i'm never going back to the post office or something. i haven't been getting mail, and my po box is terribly lonely and empty. excitement equates getting mail in the box. come on kids.
it's weird how so many of my problems lead back to me wanting to hold someone's hand.
i've been listening to alkaline trio to often. over and over. is sounds so bitter, but that's the fun behind it. i think i listened to it twice last nite before i went to bed, and once before that. funny. i couldn't go to bed. i keep waking up these days. there's nothing really exciting going on, at least not enough fr me to wake up like that. i don't know what's going on. . really.
i don't know what else to say. we have gross pictures at my work. gross as in dead and gross as in dirty. man. so dirty.. i don't know if i want to talk abt it. that's the pleasure of working at a photo lab. ..entertainment. i just go there and hang out and get paid. that's what my friend jay does too. . it's fun. we all get along, and it's fun to listen to whatever we want there. i make sure not to scare the ppl that come in with any of that brutal stuff i listen to. heh. if only i worked at a record store, i'd do that all the time.
i have the task of getting dressed up and going to senior ball with this girl ann. the fact that i don't know this girl, and it's just emilie's friend is the best part. black pants, black shirt, white belt, white tie? i want to find myself a white tie. emilie says it's ok to look mod, which is funny. . we'll see how this pans out. so now i don't feel as left out as i did before. .since andria is going to a prom. bling bling, i guess this just makes it more funny just because it's at this country club. bling bling, that's right.
time fr work. allergies go away. .
